My mind was changed literally 15 times a day. I woke up one morning, could tell that it was sunny out despite the blinds covering my windows and decided "I'm staying in Winona, I love summer here." Two minutes later when I was brushing my teeth I changed my mind again thinking that I would be in the Heffron apartment for the rest of my life.
But, on Wednesday night, after talking to a couple of corp members in the Delta, I realized that Winona wasn't going to give me opportunities like that. Intramurals is a great job, but it isn't my passion. Is teaching my passion though? Guess we'll find out. So...after I hung up the phone and realized I might have made a decision, I did what many people might do...I cried. Stupid girl. Then I called Cassie because she is probably the one person that I could call and try to rationalize my decision to. After that I went down to Lear and Stoney's apartment, puffy eyes and all. Of course they are excited, they are boys, they don't care about moving away or missing Winona...they're tough.
Then came Thursday, Jeannie took it really well...which was good because a poor response would have made me change my mind once again. Although I couldn't quite bring myself to clicking "Accept" on my offer through the Teach for America website, I decided if I told my parents and my boss, that would make it official. Surprisingly everyone else was handling it better than I was. But, now that the hard parts are over, I really feel like I can be excited about this change. I mean, really, it's only 978 miles. It's unlike something I have ever done before...I envy Kansas who can frequently pack up and move across the country. But, here goes nothing. It's a comfort to have Uncle Mike and Aunt Gretchen there FOR SURE!
However, there are always the what ifs? It's how my life works. What if I can't cut it. What if I'm not a good teacher. What if my car breaks down and my dad is 15 hours away! What if I fail the praxis? And the biggest one...what if they don't have parades in Mississippi???? My life would be O-VER!
The one thing I know...spending 4th of July in Houston...there had better be a parade and fireworks CLOSE by :)
